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  • The S word

    The reason why I’m writing this today is simply because I’m sick. So sick. So sick of people commenting that I’m (too) skinny. I know it very well myself and don’t need you to remind me. People telling me that I’m skinny is like how a fat person receives a comment that he is fat. IT IS EQUALLY INSULTING. Let me just tell you how it feels like to be in my shoes, to be skinny.

    When I walk on the streets, people stare at my waist and stick-thin legs. And no, I do not take that as a compliment. I feel as conscious as a fat person worried about her body size. Aunties and people always walk pass me and try to whisper (obviously too loud), “she’s so SKINNY!!” even the slightest SSSS sound makes me feel conscious and demoralised already.

    While tumblr and whatnots have glorified skinny, I don’t think skinny is a good thing at all. Well, at least in my life. I’ve grown up having people said I look like I’m suffering from malnutrition. I’ve had a group of doctors worrying over my puberty and thanking God that my menses came when I was 13. I’ve had people even say (to a guy I dated) that “huh why you like Keline? She is so skinny and tanned.” Hey, my body size and skin colour do not determine how much love I deserve. Everyone is entitled to love and be loved. Just because you are skinny or fat doesn’t mean you are less worthy of being loved.
    And the thing is, it’s not that I wanted this body size. I was born with it, I inherited my parents’ genes and I can’t help it. I have tried many many ways to gain weight and have seen doctors, but nothing helps. I have also started gyming but results will take a while to show. I tried. I tried gaining weight like how you tried to eat salads. I tried exercising to gain muscles like how you tried to lose yours. If there is only one reason that makes me truly depressed, it is my body size, period.

    The last thing I want to say is, please be mindful of your words. At least don’t let the person hear it if you need to say it desperately. Whatever you say can break a person.

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    8 Comments

  • Reply Jessica

    Hey keline, I totally understand how u feel! When I just got together w my bf, a girl friend of his would always comment to him that I’m friggin skinny. The thing is, she was kinda meaty too but I kept my mouth shut about that. I mean girls are all conscious of their figure some way or another so I didn’t say anything that I think would hurt her feelings but it seems like others can just comment that we’re skinny and give other nasty comments without hesitation. When I was in P6, almost all the girls were at stage 5 of puberty while I was still at stage 2 and my health ed. teacher even called me to the front of the class for a demo of how a girl who’s not going through puberty yet looks like. Meanwhile the boys kept calling me “skinny bamboo” at the top of their lungs! I felt ridiculed for being just who I am and I wished a black hole would just swallow me up then.

    Although we may look skinny, I’m sure we eat proper meals and feel healthy and happy when no one’s labelling us. I used to be really bothered about this issue but now I try to laugh it off whenever I can and not let it get to me. Why should I let their comments get to me and make me miserable? I can still eat whatever I want and I have a boyfriend who loves me despite society’s criticism of our petite size. Let’s be happy together and leave all those troubles behind! πŸ™‚

    April 14, 2013 at 12:10 pm
    • Reply urbandoll

      Hey Jessica, thanks so much for this. Feels good to have somebody understand my situation :’) Omg I was also at Stage 2 of puberty in pri 6!! haha. Wish I could give you a hug! Totally agree with you, especially this: “it seems like others can just comment that we’re skinny and give other nasty comments without hesitation.” Well, I guess we can’t stop people from talking. But we definitely can stop ourselves from having unhappy thoughts and think happy things!^^ Thanks a lot!!!!

      April 15, 2013 at 12:16 am
  • Reply N

    Hi Keline, I think you’re beautiful the way you are πŸ™‚ Stay strong and don’t let others affect how you feel. xx

    April 14, 2013 at 6:32 pm
  • Reply jane

    people can be really nasty to those they don’t even know. don’t take their words to heart :))

    April 14, 2013 at 9:40 pm
    • Reply urbandoll

      Hi Jane, yeah some people are just inconsiderate.. Thank you dear! Have a great week ahead :>

      April 15, 2013 at 12:24 am
  • Reply Lydia

    You are gorgeous, my dear!! <3

    And I'm not being baised here hahaha πŸ˜‰

    April 15, 2013 at 10:50 pm
    • Reply urbandoll

      Awww!! You’re the best!!

      April 16, 2013 at 10:08 pm

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